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fuck this.

I hate life right now.

Pice of fucking shit internet connection doesnt work more than half the time. And then my fucking external harddrive crashed so I lost my itunes, 60+ movies, and all my fucking pictures. I have most of my music on my ipod so theres no lost there and i just got over losing all my movies. But then i fucking remember about my pictures. All my pictures from up to 3 years ago. Fuck this.

I want to punch something

It had begun.
Senior Year.
Today was the first day. Schedule:
AP Lit
AP Gov
AP Bio
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Its alright.
Im just tired.

Summer is raw.


I love summer.


Please dont end.
These past few weeks have been so relaxing. Although they shouldnt be. I have been working on my to-do list. I think Im doing alright so far.
A few bigger items right now that i want to accomplish is,

Get my Permit (its time)
Finish Slaughterhouse 5 + write 3 essays on it. (AP Lit HW)
Possibly get Contacts
Yard Work around House
Bike Ride around Everywhere (First need to fix flat i found this morning)
Accept every small job for anyone to earn money (Yard work, moving furniture, pet sitting, ...ect.)
Print out my pictures to hang around room
Maybe look for Job.
College APPPSS!!!!!(nooo....)



Anyway, im set for the next two weeks until i head off to "Asian Camp" with cousins. Hope it will be good.

My mom fell and hit her head on the cement stairs. Theres about a two inch gash above her eyebrow. Just got back from ER, Alta Bates. Slowest place ever. She is still there getting a CAT scan and stitches.

School is over. Junior year. Done.
I am so glad. But I feel bad because this summer all my friends have jobs and ill have nothing to do. Ill still be busy, but idk it'll be interesting. I am not having full thoughts right now. I went riding around the cemetery after dinner. It was misting/sprinkling on me. My bike is EXTREMELY difficult to ride up hills. Just the slightest incline bring the biggest struggler. Or maybe im just weak. Well whatever the reasons is im going to build up me legs this summer. They are weak. Yes indeadio.

Anyway. Im going to Coast Rica this sunday. I am so fucking excited. My mom sent e all the links to where we're going. Uhhhhhh so juiced. Too bad their forecasting thunderstorms. Of what the hell, i have a new raincoat and most likey to be too hard. Ill probably post more, now that summer is rounding the corner. Peace.

Yesterday, my brother, Andrew graduated from CAL. Woke up at 6:45 , ceremony ended at 12. It wasnt terrible actually. Got home then began cleaning for grad party. While cleaning my bunnies, I noticed one of them was very weak. About an hour later of comforting, she died an unexpected death. She was only about 6 years old. And to keep the mood of the party, my mom and I told all the guests that she wasnt feeling well. It is good for the companion to be with the body for at least a day, so we had to keep her in the cage for the whole night. My little cousin, who adores them, was asking about her. Also, we asked if he could take care of "them", actually meaning one. Today i buried her in the backyard. Though it was my 3 real animal burial. It was the first time it was mine. In fact this was the first time one of my childhood animals has passed away (not counting mice and rats from when i was too small to remember).


Rest in Peace Biscotti "Biscuit"
April 2004-May 2009

Have not posted for 5 weeks. Lets see thats not since April 22. Lets seeeee, Reno was that weekend. It was pretty raw. I'm completely tired of that town. I realized that i had been there 5 years in a row and it just just gets soo tiring. blah blah blah. Ugh im tired oh the internet right now. Ill summarize the next month in key words.

Physics projects, AP Tests, Disneyland, tired as hell, I-Search, USDA teaching, Physics Teaching, Birthday:uneventful, tired as shit, review for 4 hours, no dinner.


Had the APUSH test today. Horrible. The FRQs were horrid.

AP Euro tomorrow. Much better feeling.

Andrews Graduation on Saturday. Family Party that night at house.

I forgot to update earlier but yeah, Prom was pretty good. First we got there about an hour late because Rich had to pick up the Charger from Oak Airport and it took a while. But i really didnt care that much being late. And then food was alright. The chicken looked dry, and I tried it and it was. However the steak, which I had, wasn't awful. Pretty Surprising. Anyway, the music wasn't terrible considering i was already expecting to be disastrous. It ended around 11:30 and Miho wanted to drive around because we had it for the day, so we went to go get ice cream. By now i was completely dead. It was only about midnight when we drove an the way to Fentons when we found out it closed 5 minutes earlier. So then I fell asleep and found myself in Mels where I had come great mint chip ice cream. Then we drove back to El Cerrito. I changed out of the tux and headed for Jacks. I tell you idk how anyone had the energy to go to an after party. I would've gone to something but Jack And Mihos parents forbade them, so I was stuff with getting my own ride to wherever. It turned out I was to tired to do anything anyway, so Ghostface just came over to Jack, we watched about 30 minutes of Young Frankenstein(great movie) then fell asleep.


Yeah so there my Prom. I liked it .

Today is Prom. Im pretty excited. Jack's mom rented some car for us(me, him, miho) and we are going to maybe drive it around, then maybe get dropped off at Zachs for pictures. Idk I dont particularly want to go to his house, but whatever.
Other than that Spring Break is after this next week. YESSSS!!!. And my I-Search was assigned. Im doing the history of the camera and its transition from film to digital.

I don't know what to do with my life. It seems everyday, I realize more and more things I could do that I don't.

This Summer, I want to try to accomplish alot.
My first priority will to try to find a job. I have a chance for an internship at the USDA for a lab hand. The USDA( US Department of Agriculture) is where I'm taking a class every Wednesday at 2:30 to 4:30 on agricultural studies. Anyway, they offer a summer internship or possibly a part-time job as a lab hand which my friend Jack had last summer. Its below minimum wage but its easy and stress-less(hopefully). If not, ill try to apply at different places around town. Possibly that Lord's Ice Cream place. I havnt been there but I hear the owners are nice. If I cant find a job, I cant find a job.

Otherwise this summer I might go on a trip to Costa Rica. Which you cant really tell through the computer, but I'm actually quite excited for that. Btw I've never mentioned but I don't really use exclamation marks. I just dont like them. But yeah, ill talk to my mom again but I'm going to try and go to Costa Rica either this summer sometime or during Easter Break. I like going on vacation, where there are no big metropolises and I can just photograph the scenery.

I also might go to Diabetes Teen Camp, which I went to the family Camp a couple years ago and actually enjoyed it. I'm not sure if it was actually being around other Diabetics or just the nature and the camp itself. Anyway I kinda want to get myself to go to Teen Camp so I can meet other people and get myself healthier. Speaking of which I have a endocrinology appointment this Thursday and my doctor is not going to be happy. I like her and all, but these appointments are getting soooooo, ....idk predictable and time consuming. Basically every appointment ends with her telling me I need to get my blood sugar lower. Which I do. Theres all truth in that statement, but in all seriousness its hard. Which is why I want to go to Teen Camp to get myself more exposed to healthier people.

Anyway, I just recently decided I might want to go to Asian Camp, which my cousins have gone the past few years and have recommended it to me multiple times (Yeah I know all the camps are really prejudiced haha). But I figured I kinda want to try it out. I just did a little researching and found out its not incredibly far away. Ill talk it over with my parents. I figure i might go because they have wanted me to go too.

And If I do end up going to all these places and doing all these things I realize how spoiled I am. I basically have all the things I could have possibly wanted. Seriously, anythings that I dont have, my friends have it and I can access. I get jealousy but, alot of people dont realize that they could just ask to use it too. Thats pretty vague, but I'm just ranting. But in all seriousness have all the things I need and want. I have food and a roof over my head. I have a loving family whom none of them I dislike(all the time). I have enough clothes for me. I have a pretty good computer ( only pretty good because it really does need an upgrade). I have a very good camera and I can watch tv whenever I want. I have technically 4 Ipods, but one is a shuffle, which I gave to my dad, one is a nano, which is sometimes used by my brother, I have my other brothers old ipod that sort of out of order, and I have a 30 GB that I use currently. I have a cozy bed which has many pillows. I have two great pet rabbits and a recently adopted dog. I have books and all the things I need for school at my access. I have a trigger trombone, a tenor trombone, two ukuleles, an acoustic guitar, and couple of accordions. I have a cell phone. I have a Insulin Pump. Best of all I have my freedom. I can go anywhere after school and on the weekends. I can get by without being yelled at when I get B's ( and even one C) on my report card. Best of all I have a hot meal every night and enough food for my Diabetes doctor to be upset about. Nearly all of this, I have never spend a cent on. Not a single penny. Being a parent is so incredibly difficult in the World today. In America these days. In California these days. Teenagers are so fucking bitchy. Its annoying sometimes I can't stand my friends because of the ignorance. Sometimes I cant stand anyone. This is probably why I really like animals. I dont always needs answers to my questions. I just like to ask them. I really like my new dog. So far we think hes a Corgi-Spaniard-Brittany. Hes either named Winston or Sebastian.

I'm done. and also quite tired.

My mom and I adopted a dog yesterday. It was sort of spontaneous but hes pretty cool. He's a Corgi-Spaniard Mix with white and brown hair. I would post a picture, but I'm not entirely sure how to. oh well. Btw i'm on Ski week vacation. Its great.

I'm so relieved that this new semesters is considerably easier than last. I suppose it would be diffucult to beat 3 AP classes. but right now I have,

A Block-Jazz Ensemble
1st block-Physics
2nd Block-English 3
3rd block-T.A. Japanese 2
4A block-Symphonic band

I'm pretty happy with this for now. Btw Obama is president. Finally. He also closed Guantanamo Bay. SCHWEEEEET.

I finally picked up my bicycle that I got at Christmas.

Its great.
Seriously.
I cant wait to ride it around. Riding around during the middle of the night sounds great.
I rode around with Russell today after we picked it up from Manifesto Bicycles.
Here it is :
http://www.sebikes.com/Singlespeed/700cDraft.aspx

I also picked up my new suit which I fitted for before Christmas. Its sweet. I really like buying clothes when I dont have to pay for it.

Its Winter Break. Finally. Its half over, which is poop. Christmas was great this year! I got a bike. Single Speed.


But I've been trying to think about what I want to study in college and where. Right now I'm thinking some Photography stuff somewhere in California. Still need to give it more thought I might try to take a photography class at CAL during the Summer to see if I like the subject as a class.

I think the last time I posted was a while so heres the update. I changed my 2nd block Calculus to 3rd block which only has 11 other kids in it and I need to help. So thats a plus. And I dropped Japanese 1 T.A. So now I have AP Euro 2nd block. So its now.

Jazz Ensemble
AP US History
AP European History
AP Calculus
Symphonic Band

Yeah 3 AP classes. Surprisingly its not so bad. But I have no doubt that it'll get allllllllot more stressful and difficult. Thought I'm already having problems with Calculus. I hope I'll manage.

Anyway I just watching about about 4 and a half hours watching Dragon Ball Z. Holy Shit I love that show. It just made my weekend. Speaking of with, I have the Solano Stroll on Sunday. I hope it wont be too hot. And then The Sycamore Bazaar is next sunday. I'm excited , but Jazz Ensemble is playing which kinda sucks ass. Mr. Ting is Iffy. But he is very chill. But its more of a lazy chill.

School sucks basically. All of the classes are screwed up. From what I hear, its the vice principles fault. But basically all the classes are too full. People have to stand up, sit in random chairs, and even sit on the ground. I heard one class has 42 people in it. Not Good. I mean thats a fire hazard too.

But anyway, My schedule began with no 3rd block this semester and no 1st block 2nd semester. I was missing Physics and Calculus B/C. Already lame. So when 3rd block comes around i have to wait over 2 hours(estimate) to finally talk to my counselors. First I got calc B/C on but then had to drop Japanese 4, which i already wanted to drop and do jap 3. But Jap 3 is 1st block which is when I have APUSH which i dont want to switch out of. So I had to drop Japanese altogether. But the stupid part is that I had already been to the counselors last year to tell them They forgot Calc B/C before. So then I still needed a 3rd block. physics, and a 1st block next semester. Luckily there is a physics class next semester first block which would be perfect. BBBBBut its full. No surprise there. and for my 3rd block, I couldn't find anything worth taking So I took a TA for Ms. Satake. Today I got there and there was already 2 TA's there. Luckily Derek wasn't officially signed up So I do have that class. And about 2 minutes later another kid wants to be a TA. And Also 2 other people were going to TA. 6 TA's? That would be awesome. But as of now I am still missing Physics and a 1st block next semester. If I can get into the class it would be ssssoooooo nice. I even went to Mr. Fabini to day but he said he wouldn't sign anything till he knew more on how many people are in his classes. Whew. But yeah. LAME

Now for my classes

Jazz Ensemble-Tomorrow is the first day playing.
APUSH- Ms. Taylor yells alot. I like her. I should be doing cornell notes right now
Calculus A/B- Shit man. Its the second day and already am having alot of trouble. I might have to start going to math Tutoring.
TA for Japanese 1- Hella Boring
and
Symphonic Band- Mr Ting is turning out OK. Tomorrow is the first day for playing. I'm kinda anxious to see how its going to work.


Whew...
School is Lame.

NNNNNot ready for school!!!! Wait uppp. I still need to paint my room. And move things back into it before school starts. Which is in 3 days! and all I've accomplished is priming one wall. But i have already de-popcorned my ceiling which was a bitch to do. It was so damn dusty.

I'm hoping I can at least finish most of the painting before school starts. Whew these next 3 days are going to kill me.

Whew I'm getting exausted and a little homesick, but be not mistaken Alaska is herrrra Tight. I'm in Juneau (idk how to spell it) in their public library. Today was tiring. I went on a long hike that was loooooong. Well i have to go now. I might be able to update in kethican (dont knoww how to spell that one either). Bye

Man I'm really liking Alaska. It took me a little time to realize this, but yeah. the people here are really nice. I came to the conclusion that small cities are full of nice people because for some reason they are never in a rush. WHen you're in a rush you always seem to be arrogant and cranky. Unfriendly is the word. But yeah, I'm in Sitka now. Its a nice town. They is a raptor (bird of pery)rehibilitaion center. It was really cool seeing a bald eagle 2 feet away from your face. I'll try to update later.

I'm leaving to Alaska in 3 hours. I'm really excited. Actually. Yeah. No Really. I am. if i have a computer + internet access, then i might update while up there.